Sometimes I drive myself nuts!

I am one of those people that likes to be unique and be my own self.  I think that it has to do with the fact that I am the youngest of 9 kids.  Well because I am like this, I want my kids to be unique and I treat them like they are all different, but I want to make sure I treat them all equally.  For example, when I write in my journal or on the blog, I try not to write too much on just one child.  Well I do the same thing with scrapbooking.  I want to make sure that I scrapbook for them all equally.  And with the whole unique thing, I make sure that if I take a picture, I make sure they are not wearing a shirt that the previous boy wore (in a picture).   

Well anyway, the reason why I drive myself nuts.  When Kanyon was a baby, I had no problem doing a 4 page spread instead of just 2 pages.  I did a lot of pages for him, I had nothing else to scrapbook and I had a little more time than I do now.  Well because I did that for Kanyon, I feel like I have to do it for all of my kids.  I did it for Tyce and so I have to do it for Keyne.  Well now it's really hard to do that many pages, I really don't have that much time and now I have three kids scrapbooks to do.  It can be a little stressful at times, but I'm making progress at least.  I have already done 15 pages for Keyne, and I'm not even to him being a week old!    

Maybe someday my kids will appreciate that I treat them as equals.  But I'm sure since I have boys, they will just care less and never even pay attention to the small details.  Oh well, maybe I really do it more for myself :)